Never did I imagine that I would ever encounter problems with money. Perhaps its not me, but it will definitely affect me directly. I really don't know what to expect in the hard days to come for the year ahead. Especially when I need to go full force for "O" levels, this is the last thing I would want to worry about. My parents would always emphasise, "just study hard, school things don't worry." They still say this, no doubt, but i have to bravely admit, I feel extremely guilty about this whole year.
Never did I know that what i had was in exchange for excruciating hard work. I took them lightly, I didn't really appreciate them, most of all, I didnt produce desirable results. OK this is no all about studies. But the issue of money, no one can deny its luxuries it gives. Hence we take for granted. Like me. From the middle of this year, each month, had spent $90+$120+$130+$90=$430 just on a months tuition only. $430 times 5months = $2100!!
And this is just tuition. So I was expected to produce exceptionally good results, but didn't even meet my own expectations, what more others. My EOYs were really shitty to the core. I'm still trying to figure out why. Was it distraction? Was it because I had no motivation? I think its the second one. but I'm still not clear. I'm not ready for "O"s. Just... I think I really wasted one year of precious time.
With money now being tightened a little at home, I hope this would be my wake up call. STOP DREAMING ZHENG FANG! Reality check!! "O"s are a big thing to me. Cos i want to go to a really good JC after 10 bloody years in such a mundane and average school. Although I know my dream JC is not quite possible, but perhaps VJC? I think thats reachable.
Times now will not be so good, but I'm still learning the ropes. Now. Head on for challenges and just get past this ( I think its gonna be) bullshit year ahead. Mindset, ready. GO! All the way.
