Its been so so long since my last post. ha. Back at lat..from the grueling 4 weeks of exams. Have 2 days of holiday.
Had just watch Taken just now and lets just say its incredible, gripping and brilliant! It really is a film with some meaning. Not your chick flick. yes its a thriller, but its out of love, unconditional love the protagonist has for his daughter albeit he is a divorcee. He went all out to find his daughter who had been kidnapped, just like how Angelina Jolie's character went all out to find her son in Changeling. No doubt those heart-pounding non-stop shooting and killing made it all the better, your heart just goes out to the protagonist who is regarded as a lesser being even in her daughter's and ex-wife's eyes. But ultimately, its the plain truth and nobility of the protagonist that earned his daughter's trust.
I really do hope my results turn out well. Im already at the brink of just giving up Chemistry especially. Have always developed a love for writing, but recently my teacher just gave me rather low grades and everything. If i cant even do well for my favourite subject, what motivation would there be to excel at the others. Its all so sudden. Why does she have such high exxpectations? For the previous 3 years, we wern't pressured by them at all. But she has this thing in her that only wants us to do exceptionally well, no? A 23 or 25 out of 30 for essays is not enough? Why must you want it to be 28? Yes the previous batch did it. But we can't. we just can't. And now you may not know it but my confidence has been thrashed. i now approach writing those essays with e certain fear in me. Fear for not living up to those expectations. Fear for not doing what im expected to produce. I have this burden which is weighing me down as a result of trying to impress. Should i just free myself from this inferno pressure and do it as i deem right? But what if its not approved? I'll still suffer then...
Alright. that was just ranting some unpleasant thoughts. Now at least i have the YZ A/S, the True Hearts event, the RBKD Chalet, the class camp and the YZ concert to look forward to. At least being pressured made me more mature because of the forced effect of looking at things form a different angle and writing with a different style. Im in need of encouragement, of love, and security.
